10.07.10
Al Ain Tour with Andi and Friends
OO na I cant stand on my words na iiwasan ko na si andi. Kasi kasama ko sya ng Saturday. UU gumawa sya ng paraan na ipost pone ang lakad nya, just to be with me. Yan ang reason kung bakit magulo parin, kasi iba ang sinasabi nya skin sa ginagawa nya…
Im happy kasi atleast panu nakasama ko sya, my picture pa nga kami together eh. I felt na mahal nya rin ako, kaya lang iba sa sinasabi nya na ayaw nya sakin, cguro nga talagang di lang pwede.
Masaya rin akong nakasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko, sila yung isa sa mga best na meron ako. Kaya lang malungkot ako para sa x sis ko, kasi parang di sya Masaya, parang di sya okei. Parang my kulang. Alam mo yung tipong anjan nga sya pero parang hindi naman nag eexist. Naawa ako para sa knya but then, nahihiya naman akong mag tanong kasi sya yung tipo ng tao na hindi nag sasabi ng mga bagay bagay about her, mag sasalita sya pero sasabihin nya sau okei lang sya.
My friends like andi na, kasi naman kahit sino u would like him. he is cool and gentleman. Tapos napaka neat pa nyang tignan. Pamatay sakin kapag neat ka manamit.
How I wished n asana akin nalng sya, pero hindi parin pwede, kasi alam kong hindi talga sya magiging akin.
Hinatid nya ako sa house ko, and were talking kung okei ba ang trip and everything, kung nag enjoy daw ba ako. I was okei feeling tired lang talaga. Addict kasi ako, last Friday my party sa bahay 03:30 am na ako nakatulog ng Saturday then woke up at 8 am, si andi tinawagan nya ako. To wake me up and not to forget the trip.
Conclusinon ng mga kaibigan he loves me naman daw kaya lang because of his family kaya hindi pwede. Hindi nya kayang paninidigan yung love nya sakin pagdating sa pamilya nya.
Thursday 22 July 2010
Seven Golden rules of Life
This is from andi...19.07.10
1st
Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life
Relationships work best when they are balanced.
2nd
Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.
3rd
When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free.
When you keep saying you have no time, then you will never have time.
When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.
4th
When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices.
Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.
Choice is yours.
5th
We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life, it's strange but true. Once you realize this, it's never too late to change.
6th
Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad. Don't take decision when you are angry.
Think twice, act twice.
7th
Time is like river. You can't touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again.
Enjoy every moment of life
1st
Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life
Relationships work best when they are balanced.
2nd
Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.
3rd
When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free.
When you keep saying you have no time, then you will never have time.
When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.
4th
When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices.
Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.
Choice is yours.
5th
We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life, it's strange but true. Once you realize this, it's never too late to change.
6th
Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad. Don't take decision when you are angry.
Think twice, act twice.
7th
Time is like river. You can't touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again.
Enjoy every moment of life
WORTH WAITING FOR
22.07.10
WORTH WAITING FOR
NGA BA?.. OKEI NA RIN ATLEAST NGA NAMAN MERON KESA NAMAN SA WALA…MASWERTE PARIN AKO SA IBA…HEHEHE…
AFTER WAITING FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS…NGAUN LANG NA PURSUE, NAGKATOTOO…ANG INCREASE AT BONUS….NG KUMPANYA KO…
UNG MGA NAGDAANG ARAW IPINASAWALANG BAHALA KO ANGMGA HAKA HAKA NA MERON NGA RAW…UNTIL YESTERDAY….UNTIL TODAY..FINALLY…
DESERVING NAMAN KAMI LALO NA AKO, SA KLASE NG TRABAHO AT AMO NA MERON AKO…BUT DESPITE THOSE HARDSHIP MY INANI NAMAN AKO…MILLION THANKS AGAIN….
ISA NALANG ANG HINIHJINTAY KO NA SANA MAKAMIT KO NA…..ANG IYONG PAG IBIG….ANG IYONG MGA HALIK…..ANG IYONG MGA YAKAP….ANG MAKASAMA KA KAHIT SA SANDALING PANAHON MAN LANG..
HETO NANAMAN AKO….PERO SA MGA NAGDAANG MGA ARAW, NATUTO AKO, MARAHIL DAHIL NASASAKTAN MO, NATUTO AKONG IPAGSAWALANG BAHALA KA…NATUTO AKONG SAKTAN KA RIN IN A WAY NA GUSTO MO…NATUTO AKONG UNTI UNTING MAG MOVE ON NG FEELINGS PARA SAU…NATUTO AKONG I DIVERT SA KUNG ANU ANO ANG ANO MANG NARARAMDAMAN KO PARA SAU…SANA LANG TULOY TULOY NA TO…BAKA SA PANGALAWANG PAG KAKATAON HINDI KO NA KAYANG BUMANGON ULIT….AT BONGANG BONGANG LUBOG NA ANG FEELINGS KO SAU….
SANA LANG WAG DUMATING ANG TIME NA WALA NA AKONG FEELINGS SAU TSAKA KA NAMAN MAGHAHABOL…MAHIRAP….MASAKIT ….ANG MAG MAHAL NG TAONG HINDI KA MAHAL….AT YAW KONG MARANASAN MO YUN….LALO NA KUNG GALING SAKIN….DAHIL MINSAN MINAHAL KITA AT NARANASAN KO UN NG DAHIL SAU…..
MAGHIHINTAY AKO SA TAMANG PAGKAKATAON…SA TAMANG PANAHON…SA TAMANG SITWASYON….AT LALONG LALO NA SA TAMANG TAO…..MALAY MO….IT IS WORTH WAITING FOR, FOR SOMEONE FOR A VERY LONG TIME….
WORTH WAITING FOR
NGA BA?.. OKEI NA RIN ATLEAST NGA NAMAN MERON KESA NAMAN SA WALA…MASWERTE PARIN AKO SA IBA…HEHEHE…
AFTER WAITING FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS…NGAUN LANG NA PURSUE, NAGKATOTOO…ANG INCREASE AT BONUS….NG KUMPANYA KO…
UNG MGA NAGDAANG ARAW IPINASAWALANG BAHALA KO ANGMGA HAKA HAKA NA MERON NGA RAW…UNTIL YESTERDAY….UNTIL TODAY..FINALLY…
DESERVING NAMAN KAMI LALO NA AKO, SA KLASE NG TRABAHO AT AMO NA MERON AKO…BUT DESPITE THOSE HARDSHIP MY INANI NAMAN AKO…MILLION THANKS AGAIN….
ISA NALANG ANG HINIHJINTAY KO NA SANA MAKAMIT KO NA…..ANG IYONG PAG IBIG….ANG IYONG MGA HALIK…..ANG IYONG MGA YAKAP….ANG MAKASAMA KA KAHIT SA SANDALING PANAHON MAN LANG..
HETO NANAMAN AKO….PERO SA MGA NAGDAANG MGA ARAW, NATUTO AKO, MARAHIL DAHIL NASASAKTAN MO, NATUTO AKONG IPAGSAWALANG BAHALA KA…NATUTO AKONG SAKTAN KA RIN IN A WAY NA GUSTO MO…NATUTO AKONG UNTI UNTING MAG MOVE ON NG FEELINGS PARA SAU…NATUTO AKONG I DIVERT SA KUNG ANU ANO ANG ANO MANG NARARAMDAMAN KO PARA SAU…SANA LANG TULOY TULOY NA TO…BAKA SA PANGALAWANG PAG KAKATAON HINDI KO NA KAYANG BUMANGON ULIT….AT BONGANG BONGANG LUBOG NA ANG FEELINGS KO SAU….
SANA LANG WAG DUMATING ANG TIME NA WALA NA AKONG FEELINGS SAU TSAKA KA NAMAN MAGHAHABOL…MAHIRAP….MASAKIT ….ANG MAG MAHAL NG TAONG HINDI KA MAHAL….AT YAW KONG MARANASAN MO YUN….LALO NA KUNG GALING SAKIN….DAHIL MINSAN MINAHAL KITA AT NARANASAN KO UN NG DAHIL SAU…..
MAGHIHINTAY AKO SA TAMANG PAGKAKATAON…SA TAMANG PANAHON…SA TAMANG SITWASYON….AT LALONG LALO NA SA TAMANG TAO…..MALAY MO….IT IS WORTH WAITING FOR, FOR SOMEONE FOR A VERY LONG TIME….
IF I HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE
21.07.10
IF I HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE
ONE CHANCE to show you how I love you…ONE CHANCE to be with you…Sa madaling salita, kung pag bibigyan mo lang ako ng isang pagkakataon na maging GIRLFRIEND mo…Marami akong gustong gawin, marami akong gusto ituro sau, Marami akong gustong lutuin para sau….
Ngunit, gustuhin mo mang pag bigyan ako, alam kong hindi pwede…Alam kong nasasaktan ka sa tuwing my mga bagay bagay na hindi tau nag kakaunawaan….Alam ko rin na minsan nasasaktan kita sa mga salita ko, lalo na kung sinasabi kong wala naman taung relasyon…Totoo naman diba?...At ayaw mo….Marahil dahil sa Kultura nya…Tangap ko un…
Minsan hindi ko na alam kung paano ka pasasayahin, hindi ko lam kung panu ka patatawanin…. Nakakalungkot minsan kasi nakikita kitang Masaya na kausap ang ibang tao, samantalang sakin, palaging seryoso, OO minsan nag seselos ako, pero hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sau, Minsan gustong gusto ko ng sabihin sau na mahal na mahal kita, pero natatakot akong baka lumayo ka sakin, baka bigla nalang na hindi ka magparamdam. Natatakot akong mawala ka, kahit na mas madalas na hilingin ko na sana hindi nalang kita nakilala, na sana hindi ka nalang dumating lalo na kapag nasasaktan mo ako, My mga oras lalo na kung galit ako sau na nararamdaman ko na balewala ka na sakin, after nun magiging ok na naman tau kasi nag papapansin, kasi nag paparamdam ka..
Nung akala ko binalewala mo ako, nung akala ko wala lang ako sau, nagalit ako sau nun, nagpachildish na hindi naman dapat…Pero pilit mo parin pinagsisisiksikan sa kukote ko na importante ako, bakit hindi ko yata maramdaman?..nag dedemand ba ako?...hindi…gusto ko lang ng kasagutan.
Sa sandaling ikaw ay lumisan akala ko my puwang ako sau, wala pala….Mas naging importante sau ang mga kaibigan mo, U spend the night with them..And u just called me after ur party. And it took for 2 mins…Atlast narinig din kitang humalakhak…Napatawa rin kita kahit panu…Kahit na malungkot ako at nasasakatan, ok pa rin…And simply the call ended by saying Takecare….
Tao lang ako, minsan gusto ko rin maramdaman na mahal ako ng taong mahal ko…. UNg taong kapag gusto kong mag shopping nanjan sya, ung taong kapag gusto kong manood ng sine anytime, ung taong close sa mga kaibigan ko, ung taong game sa lahat ng hilig ko…Hindi ung taong nanjan lang sya kapag gusto nya lang akong makita, kapag free sya dahil busy ang mga kaibigan nya…Ung Taong gusto rin mag sacrifice ng DAHIL SAKIN…
Maybe this time it is called ONE SIDED LOVE…..and IM HOPING THAT SOMEDAY IT IS CALLED A RELATIONSHIP THAT LOVE EACH OTHER………
IF I HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE
ONE CHANCE to show you how I love you…ONE CHANCE to be with you…Sa madaling salita, kung pag bibigyan mo lang ako ng isang pagkakataon na maging GIRLFRIEND mo…Marami akong gustong gawin, marami akong gusto ituro sau, Marami akong gustong lutuin para sau….
Ngunit, gustuhin mo mang pag bigyan ako, alam kong hindi pwede…Alam kong nasasaktan ka sa tuwing my mga bagay bagay na hindi tau nag kakaunawaan….Alam ko rin na minsan nasasaktan kita sa mga salita ko, lalo na kung sinasabi kong wala naman taung relasyon…Totoo naman diba?...At ayaw mo….Marahil dahil sa Kultura nya…Tangap ko un…
Minsan hindi ko na alam kung paano ka pasasayahin, hindi ko lam kung panu ka patatawanin…. Nakakalungkot minsan kasi nakikita kitang Masaya na kausap ang ibang tao, samantalang sakin, palaging seryoso, OO minsan nag seselos ako, pero hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sau, Minsan gustong gusto ko ng sabihin sau na mahal na mahal kita, pero natatakot akong baka lumayo ka sakin, baka bigla nalang na hindi ka magparamdam. Natatakot akong mawala ka, kahit na mas madalas na hilingin ko na sana hindi nalang kita nakilala, na sana hindi ka nalang dumating lalo na kapag nasasaktan mo ako, My mga oras lalo na kung galit ako sau na nararamdaman ko na balewala ka na sakin, after nun magiging ok na naman tau kasi nag papapansin, kasi nag paparamdam ka..
Nung akala ko binalewala mo ako, nung akala ko wala lang ako sau, nagalit ako sau nun, nagpachildish na hindi naman dapat…Pero pilit mo parin pinagsisisiksikan sa kukote ko na importante ako, bakit hindi ko yata maramdaman?..nag dedemand ba ako?...hindi…gusto ko lang ng kasagutan.
Sa sandaling ikaw ay lumisan akala ko my puwang ako sau, wala pala….Mas naging importante sau ang mga kaibigan mo, U spend the night with them..And u just called me after ur party. And it took for 2 mins…Atlast narinig din kitang humalakhak…Napatawa rin kita kahit panu…Kahit na malungkot ako at nasasakatan, ok pa rin…And simply the call ended by saying Takecare….
Tao lang ako, minsan gusto ko rin maramdaman na mahal ako ng taong mahal ko…. UNg taong kapag gusto kong mag shopping nanjan sya, ung taong kapag gusto kong manood ng sine anytime, ung taong close sa mga kaibigan ko, ung taong game sa lahat ng hilig ko…Hindi ung taong nanjan lang sya kapag gusto nya lang akong makita, kapag free sya dahil busy ang mga kaibigan nya…Ung Taong gusto rin mag sacrifice ng DAHIL SAKIN…
Maybe this time it is called ONE SIDED LOVE…..and IM HOPING THAT SOMEDAY IT IS CALLED A RELATIONSHIP THAT LOVE EACH OTHER………
I should Not expect anything from you
17.07.10
I should never expect anything from you
Last Thursday night he called me telling me about what had happened to him, sabi nya after nya drinop yung nainterview na para sa receptionist namin nadisgrasya daw sya, and he even doesn’t know how to go home here in Abu Dhabi on Saturday.
Friday he called me again asking what my itinerary for today told him that my friend parrot is inviting me to go to bar, so he told me ok go out with your friends, Yeah went for a movie in the afternoon with cousins then went out at 12:00am with parrot went to bar, Manila Bay. It’s been long time since didn’t went out with my friends to bar.
Saturday I was feeling worried, (feeling GF) I texted him in the morning, asking how he was, he fix his car or whatever?.I didn’t received any text from him, so worried na ako to the max, I called, ilang beses ba un, halos every minute, walang sagot. In the afternoon texted him again, wala pa rin, ok fine kung ayaw wag. Went out with my friends at 7pm to al wahdah mall, worried parin ako, kung ano na nagyari sa knya, cyempre ako todo libang, bumili na ako ng damit for Iftra Party namin kahit matagal pa yun, tapos went home at 11:00 pm. Hayun pinipilit kong matulog, ayaw parin, Im still worried, sabi nya kasi sakin, Saturday tatawagan nya ako kappag nakauwi na sya, so feeling ko something went wrong, then suddenly nag ring ang phone ko, akala ko sya na, hindi pala, si Mr. Ray, nangungumusta kasi asa UK sya ngaun, leave for 1 week.
Tama lang ang mga friends ko dapat kasi hindi ako nag eexpect anything from him, I should not even invest my feelings towards him, I should not care. And I should not Love him the way I do. Maling mali, wala syang panabla de honor. Ayaw ko pa naman sa mga taong ganun, and most of all ayaw ko ng na iignore ako, lalo na kapag tinatawagan kita, If ur busy then tell me, madali naman akong kausap eh, sana lang hindi sya nangangako ng hindi nya pala kayang tuparin.
I should never expect anything from you
Last Thursday night he called me telling me about what had happened to him, sabi nya after nya drinop yung nainterview na para sa receptionist namin nadisgrasya daw sya, and he even doesn’t know how to go home here in Abu Dhabi on Saturday.
Friday he called me again asking what my itinerary for today told him that my friend parrot is inviting me to go to bar, so he told me ok go out with your friends, Yeah went for a movie in the afternoon with cousins then went out at 12:00am with parrot went to bar, Manila Bay. It’s been long time since didn’t went out with my friends to bar.
Saturday I was feeling worried, (feeling GF) I texted him in the morning, asking how he was, he fix his car or whatever?.I didn’t received any text from him, so worried na ako to the max, I called, ilang beses ba un, halos every minute, walang sagot. In the afternoon texted him again, wala pa rin, ok fine kung ayaw wag. Went out with my friends at 7pm to al wahdah mall, worried parin ako, kung ano na nagyari sa knya, cyempre ako todo libang, bumili na ako ng damit for Iftra Party namin kahit matagal pa yun, tapos went home at 11:00 pm. Hayun pinipilit kong matulog, ayaw parin, Im still worried, sabi nya kasi sakin, Saturday tatawagan nya ako kappag nakauwi na sya, so feeling ko something went wrong, then suddenly nag ring ang phone ko, akala ko sya na, hindi pala, si Mr. Ray, nangungumusta kasi asa UK sya ngaun, leave for 1 week.
Tama lang ang mga friends ko dapat kasi hindi ako nag eexpect anything from him, I should not even invest my feelings towards him, I should not care. And I should not Love him the way I do. Maling mali, wala syang panabla de honor. Ayaw ko pa naman sa mga taong ganun, and most of all ayaw ko ng na iignore ako, lalo na kapag tinatawagan kita, If ur busy then tell me, madali naman akong kausap eh, sana lang hindi sya nangangako ng hindi nya pala kayang tuparin.
Wednesday 7 July 2010
Phone Call :)
Kapag tinatawagan tau ng mahal natin, diba masaya tayo, pero my mga times din naman na nakikipag away tau. Ang sarap ng feeling kapag ang taong mahal mo ang tumawag sau. ung feeling na kaiba....Sakin okei na sana, kaya lang kasi mapaghangad ako... I just asked andi last night when was the date that we first went out. He told me, I dont know, and you are getting serious, so was disappointed, i felt bad, told him that he will sleep now, and said goodnights. Yeah its a slapped na wala pala talaga, asa lang ako, tama lang na sya nalang yung i give up ko..Wala naman eh, tska kung sya ang pipiliin maraming masasaktan, pati na sarili ko, kasi aasa lang ako sa wala... Nag susungit na nga ako ngaun sa kanya, nag greet sya skin ng Good Morning, late na ako nag reply,heto yung conversation namin:
Him: u got angry last night ?
Me: yeah little bit.... its not what you think why im asking about the date...i know what we are....Him: u got angry last night ?
Him: yes....u shud always remember that...and...this date remembering thing...is mostly asked by GF's....but afaik or remember...it 18th Feb.... :P
Me : lol..... there is reason why im asking you the date. I had read a book that for having next BF you should be 6 months broke up with your last bf.... thats why im asking you..... not of we should celebrate it.... we dont have to celebrate, because we dont have any relationship.....
Him: LOL u read books n select BF's
(^o^)~~*(^o^)~~*(^o^)~~*
Me: nope...its about how to handle good relationship.....
Him: understand what ?
Me: many things...and cant tell you now, as i just started reading it.... and cant concentrate on reading it....as my cousins are haviong party last night till 3 am... so been awake till 3 am...
Him:: wow.....u were awake till 3 am..... :P
i slept...asa i spoke to u....
Me: yeah.....drunk & sing with them, i cannot sleep...(^.^)
Him: Good...i knew....u wanted too...so kept the phone...n i wanted u to enjoy wid them :P instead of having boring talks wid me :P
Me: lol....dont want to joined them as i know that it will be till morning, but i dont have a choice, i cannot sleep with too much noise....
i dont feel boring when talking on the phone..... (^.^)
busy now?
Him: Busy yea
Him: me n prakash planning for a long trip on FRIDAY early morning... :P wanna join ?
where?
Me: Sorry babes next time, i cant.
Him ok babes...jan na nagtapos ang aming usapan...Its a semi final desisyon na na iiwasan ko na sya, susungitan ko nalang sya, para sya na tong kusang aayaw sakin at magalit sya sakin...
Maybe it is Never too Late
Yeah Maybe it is not yet too late to change....UU magbabago na ako....Ayaw ko nang manakit ng tao at manloko...Tama na siguro, ako na ang mag gigive up... I can sacrifice my own happiness just for you to be happy...Ayaw kong maging masaya kung my nasasaktan naman akong tao...Tigilan ko na ang pagkaselfish ko...Tama ba ito? na iiwasan ko na ang taong mahal na mahal ko na? para lang wag masaktan ang taong nagmamahal sakin... I am in a confused heart right now...uu sobrang confused na ako...
Hindi ko kayang maging masaya ng my nasasaktan na iba, at hindi ko kayang saktan ang iba para lang sa sarili kong kaligayahan...
Please help me to control everything... To stay away from andi, kahit na gustong gusto ko syang kasama at kausap...Sana makaya ko na iwasan sya na hindi sya nasasaktan...Na kapag nagtanong sya kung bakit may valid reason ako...na wag syang masaktan....I just cant be too selfish....Di bale na akong masaktan....Its my fault naman eh... Tama na, hindi talaga pwedeng ipilit ang hindi dapat....Im letting you go....Maybe in the right time will be together....Love will find a way.....
Tuesday 6 July 2010
Im Back!!!
Its been long time since my last post and my last visit. I went vacation for 31 days. As promised will be posting some pictures tomorrow. I missed this. And later will post some updates about andi.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)