Saturday 4 December 2010

My Sweetie:)

I spend alot of time with my Sweetie, its been a nice moment being with u. Through ups and downs, now everything had changed, i can feel that u love me more. Uve been over protected and been sweet to me. I love being with you, how i wish that we will be together all the time.Kala ko nun hindi ko kayang mag adjust, pero nakaya ko. Kala ko din hindi ka mag babago na wala kang pangarap na makasama ako. Ang hirap mag adjust kasi magkaiba tau ng mundo, pero sana hindi ka magbabago, mas gusto ko yung ikaw ngaun.. Mas mahal kita ngaun....

Sweetie...sana magtagal tayo at hindi mo ako iiwan.Aaminin ko hindi ko kaya ng mawala ka sa ngaun, minsan parang kaya ko, pero ang totoo hindi.

Sweetie....salamat sa pag iintindi mo at pag mamahal.

Sweetie...lahat ay nagbago na, sana tuloy tuloy na....

Sa ngaun kontento akong ikaw ang kasama ko....wala na akong hihilingin pa....kaw lang ang gusto ko makasama sa lahat ng pagsubok at sa buong araw.

Mahal kita at wala akong pakialam sa sasabihin  ng iba....Tama na yung isang kaw sa buhay ko..

I LOVE YOU MY SWEETIE

Wednesday 24 November 2010

November Blast

Ang bwan na to ang bwan na sobra akong naging busy, mas madalas na nasa labas ako kesa nasa loob ng bahay. naging busy ako sa big eid at sa buhay nag dadalaga. Mas pinag tuunan ng pansin yung sarili ko, Ito yung bwan na hindi na ako halos makatayo sa sobrang sama ng loob, at ito rin yung bwan na bumangon ako ng bonggang bonga, uu natuto akong mas mahalin ko ang sarili ko.




May mga tao sa bwang ito na ayaw kong mawala pero wala akong choice kundi ang bumitiw. Mga taong naging parte ng buhay sa loob ng mahabang panahon na dapat ay iwan ko na, hindi dahil tapos na ang parte nila sa buhay ko, kundi tapos na ang papel ko sa buhay nila. Ganun talaga ang buhay, may kailangan kang iwan.

Ito rin yung bwan na nagkskit ako ng ilang araw.



Sa bwan na ito isang bagay ang natutunan ko, Ito ay huwag na huwag kang magtitiwala sa kahit na kanino, dahil kahit pina close na kaibigan mo ay kaya ka nyang talikuran in ur darkness days.

Monday 4 October 2010

Oh my

If someone's close with us and we know that it is their birthday, what are things that comes in your mind? would you want it to greet them first or pretend that u dont know and make something that is not usual with them?.

Today its my BF birthday.I was really thinking what to do. Then finally i taught that will not let him know that i know its his bday today, deadma. In the morning, he was crazy telling me that i forgot something,so that the surprise will be really surprise told him for what,then he get pisssed off. So he sms me, telling i dont want anything and would like that my bday will be secret.So, everything falls. Told him i ordered cake for him and booked dinner at meat co.Then he told me, dont deliver the cake here in the offuce will pick it up after work and why u booked for dinner.I felt sad. But then i tried to understand him, were different so i guess he didnt mean to say those words. I know he appreciated it but then his not used of it.

After work, had to go to pick up the cake and drop it at his home, then went to Meat Co. dinner was fine.I enjoyed, and guess he also enjoyed. Went home that were happy being together.

At home, he called me telling me the cake is delicious that they cannot stop eating.

I love it when someone you love likes what uve done for him.

i love you's was there. His so sweet tonight. I love it. How i wished the night would not over.

i wish every night would be like this night. its so special and i felt that he loves me.

im so happy, so happy...hmmmm.....

Sunday 26 September 2010

LOvE mE noT....LoVe Me MoRe....

Image:Caramelizado 1169.jpgI would like to say THANK YOU to all my true friends...Nina and Karyn...Specially to Mr. Donald..Thanks for being there always.I am so blessed for having you all in my LIFE...
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Right now, i know im in the situation that is very difficult. But i know that no matter how rough the road is my friends are still there for me. To love and to understand me.

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I choosed you to be my other half. But i guess having you is very difficult for me, i know we are on this stage of adjustments and getting to know each other more. I wished everything will be fine soon. I know i am asking too much from you, especially your time and to show me how you love me, Im sorry fo asking that much, but i just wanted to feel that you truly love me, because i cant just stand here being negleted and for granted.

I know that theres no perfect relationship, im not asking either for that. Its so enough for me if you can only let me feel that you care for me.

For now, i will just love you the way i know, the way it should be without expecting much from you.

HoW To LoVe from Keith Taylor

Love is both an action and a feeling. The action of love generates a blissful feeling called by the same name. When the action stops, the blissful feeling is replaced with pain. Every person is capable of great love (and its opposite, fear, which generates all painful emotions such as hate, greed and jealousy).

While there are many different ways to define love and there are many different ways to love someone (or even yourself), here is a general guide to loving.

Steps:

1 .Say it. When you say the words "I Love You", they should carry with them the desire to show someone that you love them, not what you simply want to feel. When you say it, make sure you really mean it and are willing to do anything for that special person.


2. Empathize. Put yourself in someone else's shoes. Rather than impose your own expectations or attempt to control them, to understand how they feel, where they come from, and who they are. Realize how they could also love you back just as well.
 
3. Love unconditionally. If you cannot love another person without attaching stipulations, then it is not love at all, but deep-seated opportunism (one who makes the most of an advantage, often unmindful of others). If your interest is not in the other person as such, but rather in how that person can enhance your experience of life, then it is not unconditional. If you have no intention of improving that person’s life, or allowing that person to be themselves and accepting them as they are, and not who you want them to be, then you are not striving to love them unconditionally.
 
4. Expect nothing in return. That doesn't mean you should allow someone to mistreat or undervalue you. It means that giving love does not guarantee receiving love. Try loving just for the sake of love. Realize that someone may have a different way of showing his or her love for you; do not expect to be loved back in exactly the same way.
 
5. Realize it can be lost. If you realize that you can lose the one you love, then you have a greater appreciation of what you have. Think how lucky you are to have someone to love. Don't make an idol of the person you love. This will place them under undue pressure and will likely result in you losing them.

6. Never stop loving. Even if you have been hurt before you should not stop giving l

Monday 20 September 2010

The Guy in Black

Kapag marunong kang makiramdam sa paligid mo alam mong maraming bagay ang nagbabago, kapag hindi ka tanga sa nangyayari sa mga taong importante sayo, malalaman at malalaman mo kung my nagbabago sa kanila, ultimo pabango nila ay maaamoy mong iba, at dito ka nag sisimulang mag tanong.

Sa aking pinpasukan na opisina, napansin ko maraming nagbago, hindi lang sa kilos ng bawat tao pati na rin ang nararamdaman nila, alam kong hindi mo sila mapipigilang magbago lalo na kung ginusto nila, kapag ito ay para sa maganda yan ay mabuti, kapag nagbago sila at naging masama hindi ba dapat alalayan sila?.

Halos lahat ng tao sa opisina namin sa araw ito ay nakasuot ng itim at maaliwalas ang kanilang mukha, sa wakas ang bagyo sa opisina namin ay umalis na. Sana laging ganito, lahat ng tao masaya at mukha ng wlang dinadalang problema.

Nagluluksa sila sa kasiyahan na sa wakas ang problema ay umalis na.

Dumako tayo sa usaping pang puso, masya akong nakapag moved na daw ang xsis ko, masya akong nakikitang ok na sya ulit, na lahat ay nakakayanan na nya. Masaya ako sa estado ng relasyon namin sa araw na ito ng jowa ko, maayos naman kami sa araw na to. Konting adjustments pa, magiging ok na rin kami.Kaya lang minsan yung gusto natin hindi laging ganun.

Ang gusto ko lang naman konting sulyap, konting pansin, kuntento na ako.

Ayaw ko ng sobra nakaksakal. Kaya ang hiling ko lang ay konti, sana mapagbigyan mo ako..

Salamat nga pala sa prayers at ok pa naman kami, sana getting stronger.

The guy in black is the guy who i love the most.

Saturday 18 September 2010

what makes me busy

This past weeks been to very busy days for me....Its a week wherein there are too many emotions invloved... I get angry, get annoyed and being inlove...

Last Week Ive sufferred for many heartaches and being so lonely.

Last Week been to a very confusing situation.

This week was a week wherein i could tell that the happiest moment in my life....In Andi's life...Yup...I acccepted him as my BF...

September 15, 2010...I accepted him as my BF.....

I felt good and little confused...

Yeah i told before that i wouldnt accept him and stop loving him. Pero ang kulit ng puso ko eh....Sorry naman....

I know i hurt alot of people in accepting him as a bf...But i cant help the feeling....

Guys pray for me....I know this relation would not last....

and i only know for now is to love him.....

wish me luck....

Monday 6 September 2010

be true:)

Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon kaya kong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko lahat ng tao.Masasabi kong hindi ako sanay mag explain, because i dont have too...Ayaw kong magmukhang tanga, nag eexplain tapos hindi ka naman maniniwala.

Hindi sa iisang season mo dapat ako i judge, because u just dont know me. O hindi ba dahil yun ang tingin mo sakin, isang cheap...Well i dont think what ive done is a big no for you. A turn off...remember ive done that for just a deal...where playing....

Yung nangyari na yun, it makes me think if i really have to do something to be us. Kasi u judged me for no reason...Just because thats what you think...

Ive let you judged me...That makes u happy.

one day ill prove that i am not on what you think is...

im just being true to myself and to people around me

i dont have to lie or where a mask just to please you

I'd rather be hated for who i am, than loved for who i am NOT

Thursday 19 August 2010

Dubai

Jan ka sa dubai nagiging masaya....Mas gugustuhin mo pang pumunta sa lugar na yan kesa ang makasama ako...Cge lang..

Pwede bang dalasan mo akong saktan para matauhan na ako.

Ilang ulit ko na kasing sinasabi sa mga kaibigan ko at kay kua na wala na.Pero andito ka pa rin sa puso ko.

Baka sa paraan na yan malilimutan kita at puro galit nalang ang maiwan...

Dubai ano bang meron jan na hindi kayang ibigay ng Abu Dhabi?

Lahat andito na sa Abu Dhanbi, pero bakit karamihan sa mga kaibigan at kakilala ko y nag pupunta ng Dubai?

oh Dubai....

napakaswerte mo...

pwede bang ako nalang ikaw?

Akala Ko (".)

Akala ko noon tapos na ang lahat, wala na akong nararamdaman sayo, pero bakit ganun hangang ngaun di pa rin kita kayang bitiwan.. Siguro ay dahil mahal parin kita hanggang ngaun, kaw parin ang tinitibok ng puso ko. Minsan nag selos ako, pero naisip ko hindi pala dapat kasi wala naman tau, hayaan nalang kita baka kasi yan ang gusto mo, ang mabalewala ka. At ayaw mo ng my nagmamahal sau.

Sa puso ko kaw parin ang nandito. Pilitin ko mang alisin ka, bumabalik parin.

Akala ko kasi dati mahal mo rin ako tulad ng pagmamahal ko sayo. Hindi pala.

Dapat pala noon pa iniwan na kita, nung hindi pa ako nalubog ng husto sau..

Ngaun nag durusa ako...

yun ay dahil kasalanan ko.

Akala ko magiging masaya ako kapag iniwasan kita...hindi pala..

Akala ko hindi ako mag seselos kapag my kausap kang iba....Nagseselos pala ako..

siguro nga ay mahal lang talaga kita...hanggang ngaun....

My New Love Interest

i posted this to facebook and everybody reacted..

actually this is about my future IPAD and CANON CAMERA...

they will be my new love.....

Friday 13 August 2010

IM BLAMING MYSELF

IM BLAMING MYSELF



KASALANAN KO LAHAT….LAHAT NG SISI SAKIN MO ISISI….DAHIL MINAHAL KITA NG HINDI KO SINASADYA….KAHIT NA ALAM KONG WALANG KAPALIT…KAHIT NA ALAM KONG MALI….KAHIT NA SA SIMULA ALAM KONG WALANG PATUTUNGUHAN….KAHIT NA ALAM KONG SA HULI AKO ANG MASASAKTAN…..NGUNIT WALA AKONG MAGAGAWA….GANITO NA PALA KITA KAMAHAL….HANDA AKONG ISAKRIPISYO PATI SARILI KO PARA LANG SAYO…..

ANG GABING MY NANGYARI SATIN…..HINDI KO PINAG SISISIHAN BAGKUS AY NAGPASALAMAT AKO….BAKA ITO NA YUNG SIMULA…..SIMULA NG BAGO NATING BUKAS…..UU MY MGA BAGAY NGANG NAGSIMULA…MGA BAGAY NA ALAM KONG PANANDALIAN LAMANG…NGAUN ALAM KONG MAHALAGA AKO SAU, NGUNTI HINDI KASING HALAGA MO SA SARILI AT PAMIYA MO….TANGAP KO NA ANG BAGAY NA YAN…TULAD NALANG NG MOVIE NI ANN CURTIS AT AGA NA WALA TAUNG COMMITMENT…. NA WALANG RESPONSIBLIDAD PARA SA ISAT ISA….NAG GAGAMITAN LANG…DATI YAW KO SA RELASYONG GANITO….NGUNIT DALA NG AKING PAGMAMAHAL SAYO, NIYAKAP KO…NIYAKAP KO ANG RELASYON NA HINDI MO NAMAN MATATAWAG NA RELASYON….

AT SA PUNTONG ITO, ISUSUKO KO ANG LAHAT…GAGAWIN KONG TAMA…DAHIL MALING MY MASASAKTAN AKO….IIWAN NA KITA….KAHIT NA SOBRANG MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA…HAHANAP AKO NG TAMANG PAGKAKATAON NA HINDI KITA MASASAKTAN ….

NOON NAIINIS AKO SA TAONG HINDI MARUNONG MAKINIG SA MGA PAYO, MATIGAS ANG ULO….NGUNIT NGAUN NAIINIS AKO SA SARILI KO,KASI ASA SITWASYON AKONG HINDI KO KAYANG SUWAYIN ANG PUSO KO…NA HALOS LAHAT NG TAO PINAGSASABIHAN AKONG IWASAN NALANG SYA, WAG SYA…DAHIL WALA AKONG AASAHAN…

NGUNIT ANONG MAGAGAWA KO…GINAWA KONG IWASAN SYA, NGUNIT SYA AT SYA PARIN….SA TUWING INIIWASAN KO SYA, UN NAMAN YUNG ORAS NA LUMALAPIT SAKIN…ISA KANG TUKSO NA MAHIRAP LAYUAN….

AT SA LAHAT NG ITO….ISANG TAO LAMANG ANG SISISIHIN…UN AY “AKO” AT WALA NG IBA….

Wednesday 11 August 2010

GAYA GAYA LANG

Kanina nung napadaan ako sa mundo nina lambing at joyo ang pinag uusapan nila ay tungkol sa pag ibig, ang kay lambing ang pag ibig ay isang kape, samantalang kay joyo naman ay isang sinigang na bangus na my miso..

Napaisip ako....

Nakigaya....

Ano nga ba ang pag ibig sakin?...San ko ba sya dapat inihahantulad...

Siguro para sakin ang pag ibig ay maihahalintulad ko sa isang SUGAL...

Be specific daw...ito ay isang PIPITO.....as known as PUSOY WAY....

Bakit PIPITO?

Kasi marami kang kalaban, lalo na kung kaw ang BANGKA, tulad ng PAG IBIG....

Nanjan si crush, si first love, pamilya at pag nakataon si number 2 pa....

Nasa iyo kung paano mo IWAWAY/ IAAYOS ang BRAHA mo, maraming paraan, tulad ng PAG IBIG, depende kung paano mo ipaglalaban, kung susuko ka ba agad, o mananatili hangang kaya mo...Hanggang my pagmamahal ka pang nararamdaman...

Sa SUGAL hindi mo alam kung mananalo ka o matatalo... Ganyan din sa PAG IBIG, minsan Basted ka....minsan naman nanalo ka pero sa bandang huli maagaw naman sau..

Sabi nila wag kang magsusugal kung ayaw mong matalo dahil hindi sa lahat ng oras ay mananalo ka..

Tulad lang din ng PAG IBIG hindi lahat ng gusto natin ay syang nagmamahal satin..

Kaya lang marami satin ang handang sumugal....at Saludo ako sa mga SUGAROL.... Dahil hindi sila natatakot na Matalo...Handa silang Mag Risk...

Kaya....

Good Luck sa SUGAL ng Buhay mo...

IT’S THE TIME

Yeah…this is the time…to say THANK YOU for all those who passed by and those who are reading continuously my blog…and those who leave their comments…..It’s a PLEASURE….MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT…..


LALO NA SA MGA TUMULONG SAKIN PANU MAG UMPISA…..ITS A TREASURE KNOWING YOU….

IM ALWAYS THANKFUL FOR HAVING A READER, A COMMENTOR HERE IN MY BLOG.

SO KEEP ON READING…COMMENTING…..

LOVE YOU GUYS…..

GOT YOU….

Minsan my mga taong hindi mo alam kung ano bang problema nila... Kung talagang ikaw ba ay sadyang pinag pala o sila ay sadyang hindi lang nakukuntento sa buhay nila.


Una sa lahat ay ayaw ko ng taong plastic, lalo na kung kaharap mo ako, mas mabuting sabihin mo sakin na masama ako, na naiinggit na, na ayaw mo na sakin. Wag ung sa harapan ko, ay sinasamaba mo ako, na okei tau, na maganda ang ihinaharap mo sakin, na mabait ka.

Ako kapag galit ako sau o ayaw kita, sasabihin ko yun. So what? Mas magand ana yung ganun, kesa asa ka na okei tau. UU na masama ako kasi sinabi ko sau na ayaw kita, pero diba mas amganda un. Kesa okei kau, un pala hndi.

Naiirita lang ako lalo na kung sinasabi sakin na. UU MASAYA KA NA,KASI NASA IYO NA LAHAT… nasaan?. Hindi lahat ng bagay ay nasa akin. At hindi mo naman ako ganun kakilala para sabihan mo ako ng ganyan, hindi mo alam na ang taong mahal ko ay hindi nya ako mahal, ang taong ninanais kong mahalin ako , ako ay balewala. So u don’t even have the right to tell me na im happy na. kasi hindi mo alam ang aking mga pinagdadaan ko…

UU Masaya naman ako, kasi kuntento ako sa mga bagay na meron ako, at maraming nag mamahal sakin, eh kaw? Kelan ka ba nagging happy sa kung anong meron sau? ang hirap kas sau wala kang contentment. Pag nagkaroon ka nun im sure hindi ka ganyan ka bitter.

Pasensya ka, mapang asar ako, ipapakita ko sau lalo na Masaya ako, na kumpleto na ako, na mas ako sa lahat ng bagay sau, para mamatay ka sa inggit. Yan ang bagay sa mga bitter na tulad mo…

Kapag bitter ka wala kang patutunguhan….kaw ang talo….kaw ang mapapasama….kaya jkung ako kaw, itigil mo nay an, pero kaw yan eh….cge lang….hahaha….

ANG BOTTOMLINE LANG EH HETO:

“DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER…COME INSIDE…EXPLORE……”

“CONTENTMENT IS THE KEY TO HAPPINESS”

Thursday 22 July 2010

AL AIN TOUR WITH ANDI

10.07.10


Al Ain Tour with Andi and Friends

OO na I cant stand on my words na iiwasan ko na si andi. Kasi kasama ko sya ng Saturday. UU gumawa sya ng paraan na ipost pone ang lakad nya, just to be with me. Yan ang reason kung bakit magulo parin, kasi iba ang sinasabi nya skin sa ginagawa nya…

Im happy kasi atleast panu nakasama ko sya, my picture pa nga kami together eh. I felt na mahal nya rin ako, kaya lang iba sa sinasabi nya na ayaw nya sakin, cguro nga talagang di lang pwede.

Masaya rin akong nakasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko, sila yung isa sa mga best na meron ako. Kaya lang malungkot ako para sa x sis ko, kasi parang di sya Masaya, parang di sya okei. Parang my kulang. Alam mo yung tipong anjan nga sya pero parang hindi naman nag eexist. Naawa ako para sa knya but then, nahihiya naman akong mag tanong kasi sya yung tipo ng tao na hindi nag sasabi ng mga bagay bagay about her, mag sasalita sya pero sasabihin nya sau okei lang sya.

My friends like andi na, kasi naman kahit sino u would like him. he is cool and gentleman. Tapos napaka neat pa nyang tignan. Pamatay sakin kapag neat ka manamit.

How I wished n asana akin nalng sya, pero hindi parin pwede, kasi alam kong hindi talga sya magiging akin.

Hinatid nya ako sa house ko, and were talking kung okei ba ang trip and everything, kung nag enjoy daw ba ako. I was okei feeling tired lang talaga. Addict kasi ako, last Friday my party sa bahay 03:30 am na ako nakatulog ng Saturday then woke up at 8 am, si andi tinawagan nya ako. To wake me up and not to forget the trip.

Conclusinon ng mga kaibigan he loves me naman daw kaya lang because of his family kaya hindi pwede. Hindi nya kayang paninidigan yung love nya sakin pagdating sa pamilya nya.

Seven Golden rules of Life

This is from andi...19.07.10


1st

Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life

Relationships work best when they are balanced.



2nd

Never explain yourself to anyone.

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.



3rd

When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free.

When you keep saying you have no time, then you will never have time.

When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.



4th

When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices.

Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.

Choice is yours.



5th

We make them cry who care for us.

We cry for those who never care for us.

And we care for those who will never cry for us.

This is the truth of life, it's strange but true. Once you realize this, it's never too late to change.



6th

Don't make promise when you are in joy.

Don't reply when you are sad. Don't take decision when you are angry.

Think twice, act twice.



7th

Time is like river. You can't touch the same water twice,

because the flow that has passed will never pass again.

Enjoy every moment of life

WORTH WAITING FOR

22.07.10


WORTH WAITING FOR

NGA BA?.. OKEI NA RIN ATLEAST NGA NAMAN MERON KESA NAMAN SA WALA…MASWERTE PARIN AKO SA IBA…HEHEHE…

AFTER WAITING FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS…NGAUN LANG NA PURSUE, NAGKATOTOO…ANG INCREASE AT BONUS….NG KUMPANYA KO…

UNG MGA NAGDAANG ARAW IPINASAWALANG BAHALA KO ANGMGA HAKA HAKA NA MERON NGA RAW…UNTIL YESTERDAY….UNTIL TODAY..FINALLY…

DESERVING NAMAN KAMI LALO NA AKO, SA KLASE NG TRABAHO AT AMO NA MERON AKO…BUT DESPITE THOSE HARDSHIP MY INANI NAMAN AKO…MILLION THANKS AGAIN….

ISA NALANG ANG HINIHJINTAY KO NA SANA MAKAMIT KO NA…..ANG IYONG PAG IBIG….ANG IYONG MGA HALIK…..ANG IYONG MGA YAKAP….ANG MAKASAMA KA KAHIT SA SANDALING PANAHON MAN LANG..

HETO NANAMAN AKO….PERO SA MGA NAGDAANG MGA ARAW, NATUTO AKO, MARAHIL DAHIL NASASAKTAN MO, NATUTO AKONG IPAGSAWALANG BAHALA KA…NATUTO AKONG SAKTAN KA RIN IN A WAY NA GUSTO MO…NATUTO AKONG UNTI UNTING MAG MOVE ON NG FEELINGS PARA SAU…NATUTO AKONG I DIVERT SA KUNG ANU ANO ANG ANO MANG NARARAMDAMAN KO PARA SAU…SANA LANG TULOY TULOY NA TO…BAKA SA PANGALAWANG PAG KAKATAON HINDI KO NA KAYANG BUMANGON ULIT….AT BONGANG BONGANG LUBOG NA ANG FEELINGS KO SAU….

SANA LANG WAG DUMATING ANG TIME NA WALA NA AKONG FEELINGS SAU TSAKA KA NAMAN MAGHAHABOL…MAHIRAP….MASAKIT ….ANG MAG MAHAL NG TAONG HINDI KA MAHAL….AT YAW KONG MARANASAN MO YUN….LALO NA KUNG GALING SAKIN….DAHIL MINSAN MINAHAL KITA AT NARANASAN KO UN NG DAHIL SAU…..

MAGHIHINTAY AKO SA TAMANG PAGKAKATAON…SA TAMANG PANAHON…SA TAMANG SITWASYON….AT LALONG LALO NA SA TAMANG TAO…..MALAY MO….IT IS WORTH WAITING FOR, FOR SOMEONE FOR A VERY LONG TIME….

IF I HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE

21.07.10


IF I HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE

ONE CHANCE to show you how I love you…ONE CHANCE to be with you…Sa madaling salita, kung pag bibigyan mo lang ako ng isang pagkakataon na maging GIRLFRIEND mo…Marami akong gustong gawin, marami akong gusto ituro sau, Marami akong gustong lutuin para sau….

Ngunit, gustuhin mo mang pag bigyan ako, alam kong hindi pwede…Alam kong nasasaktan ka sa tuwing my mga bagay bagay na hindi tau nag kakaunawaan….Alam ko rin na minsan nasasaktan kita sa mga salita ko, lalo na kung sinasabi kong wala naman taung relasyon…Totoo naman diba?...At ayaw mo….Marahil dahil sa Kultura nya…Tangap ko un…

Minsan hindi ko na alam kung paano ka pasasayahin, hindi ko lam kung panu ka patatawanin…. Nakakalungkot minsan kasi nakikita kitang Masaya na kausap ang ibang tao, samantalang sakin, palaging seryoso, OO minsan nag seselos ako, pero hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sau, Minsan gustong gusto ko ng sabihin sau na mahal na mahal kita, pero natatakot akong baka lumayo ka sakin, baka bigla nalang na hindi ka magparamdam. Natatakot akong mawala ka, kahit na mas madalas na hilingin ko na sana hindi nalang kita nakilala, na sana hindi ka nalang dumating lalo na kapag nasasaktan mo ako, My mga oras lalo na kung galit ako sau na nararamdaman ko na balewala ka na sakin, after nun magiging ok na naman tau kasi nag papapansin, kasi nag paparamdam ka..

Nung akala ko binalewala mo ako, nung akala ko wala lang ako sau, nagalit ako sau nun, nagpachildish na hindi naman dapat…Pero pilit mo parin pinagsisisiksikan sa kukote ko na importante ako, bakit hindi ko yata maramdaman?..nag dedemand ba ako?...hindi…gusto ko lang ng kasagutan.

Sa sandaling ikaw ay lumisan akala ko my puwang ako sau, wala pala….Mas naging importante sau ang mga kaibigan mo, U spend the night with them..And u just called me after ur party. And it took for 2 mins…Atlast narinig din kitang humalakhak…Napatawa rin kita kahit panu…Kahit na malungkot ako at nasasakatan, ok pa rin…And simply the call ended by saying Takecare….

Tao lang ako, minsan gusto ko rin maramdaman na mahal ako ng taong mahal ko…. UNg taong kapag gusto kong mag shopping nanjan sya, ung taong kapag gusto kong manood ng sine anytime, ung taong close sa mga kaibigan ko, ung taong game sa lahat ng hilig ko…Hindi ung taong nanjan lang sya kapag gusto nya lang akong makita, kapag free sya dahil busy ang mga kaibigan nya…Ung Taong gusto rin mag sacrifice ng DAHIL SAKIN…

Maybe this time it is called ONE SIDED LOVE…..and IM HOPING THAT SOMEDAY IT IS CALLED A RELATIONSHIP THAT LOVE EACH OTHER………

I should Not expect anything from you

17.07.10




I should never expect anything from you



Last Thursday night he called me telling me about what had happened to him, sabi nya after nya drinop yung nainterview na para sa receptionist namin nadisgrasya daw sya, and he even doesn’t know how to go home here in Abu Dhabi on Saturday.

Friday he called me again asking what my itinerary for today told him that my friend parrot is inviting me to go to bar, so he told me ok go out with your friends, Yeah went for a movie in the afternoon with cousins then went out at 12:00am with parrot went to bar, Manila Bay. It’s been long time since didn’t went out with my friends to bar.

Saturday I was feeling worried, (feeling GF) I texted him in the morning, asking how he was, he fix his car or whatever?.I didn’t received any text from him, so worried na ako to the max, I called, ilang beses ba un, halos every minute, walang sagot. In the afternoon texted him again, wala pa rin, ok fine kung ayaw wag. Went out with my friends at 7pm to al wahdah mall, worried parin ako, kung ano na nagyari sa knya, cyempre ako todo libang, bumili na ako ng damit for Iftra Party namin kahit matagal pa yun, tapos went home at 11:00 pm. Hayun pinipilit kong matulog, ayaw parin, Im still worried, sabi nya kasi sakin, Saturday tatawagan nya ako kappag nakauwi na sya, so feeling ko something went wrong, then suddenly nag ring ang phone ko, akala ko sya na, hindi pala, si Mr. Ray, nangungumusta kasi asa UK sya ngaun, leave for 1 week.

Tama lang ang mga friends ko dapat kasi hindi ako nag eexpect anything from him, I should not even invest my feelings towards him, I should not care. And I should not Love him the way I do. Maling mali, wala syang panabla de honor. Ayaw ko pa naman sa mga taong ganun, and most of all ayaw ko ng na iignore ako, lalo na kapag tinatawagan kita, If ur busy then tell me, madali naman akong kausap eh, sana lang hindi sya nangangako ng hindi nya pala kayang tuparin.

Wednesday 7 July 2010

Phone Call :)

Kapag tinatawagan tau ng mahal natin, diba masaya tayo, pero my mga times din naman na nakikipag away tau. Ang sarap ng feeling kapag ang taong mahal mo ang tumawag sau. ung feeling na kaiba....

Sakin okei na sana, kaya lang kasi mapaghangad ako... I just asked andi last night when was the date that we first went out. He told me, I dont know, and you are getting serious, so was disappointed, i felt bad, told him that he will sleep now, and said goodnights. Yeah its a slapped na wala pala talaga, asa lang ako, tama lang na sya nalang yung i give up ko..Wala naman eh, tska kung sya ang pipiliin maraming masasaktan, pati na sarili ko, kasi aasa lang ako sa wala... Nag susungit na nga ako ngaun sa kanya, nag greet sya skin ng Good Morning, late na ako nag reply,heto yung conversation namin:
Him: u got angry last night ?
Me: yeah little bit.... its not what you think why im asking about the date...i know what we are....
Him: yes....u shud always remember that...and...this date remembering thing...is mostly asked by GF's....but afaik or remember...it 18th Feb.... :P
Me : lol..... there is reason why im asking you the date. I had read a book that for having next BF you should be 6 months broke up with your last bf....  thats why im asking you..... not of we should celebrate it.... we dont have to celebrate, because we dont have any relationship.....
Him: LOL u read books n select BF's
(^o^)~~*(^o^)~~*(^o^)~~*
Me: nope...its about how to handle good relationship.....
Him: understand what ?
Me: many things...and cant tell you now, as i just started reading it.... and cant concentrate on reading it....as my cousins are haviong party last night till 3 am... so been awake till 3 am...
Him:: wow.....u were awake till 3 am..... :P
i slept...asa i spoke to u....
Me: yeah.....drunk & sing with them, i cannot sleep...(^.^)
Him: Good...i knew....u wanted too...so kept the phone...n i wanted u to enjoy wid them :P instead of having boring talks wid me :P
Me: lol....dont want to joined them as i know that it will be till morning, but i dont have a choice, i cannot sleep with too much noise....
i dont feel boring  when talking on the phone..... (^.^)
busy now?
Him: Busy yea
Him: me n prakash planning for a long trip on FRIDAY early morning... :P wanna join ?
where?
Me: Sorry babes next time, i cant.
Him ok babes...jan na nagtapos ang aming usapan...Its a semi final desisyon na na iiwasan ko na sya, susungitan ko nalang sya, para sya na tong kusang aayaw sakin at magalit sya sakin...

Maybe it is Never too Late

Yeah Maybe it is not yet too late to change....UU magbabago na ako....Ayaw ko nang manakit ng tao at manloko...Tama na siguro, ako na ang mag gigive up... I can sacrifice my own happiness just for you to be happy...Ayaw kong maging masaya kung my nasasaktan naman akong tao...Tigilan ko na ang pagkaselfish ko...

Tama ba ito? na iiwasan ko na ang taong mahal na mahal ko na? para lang wag masaktan ang taong nagmamahal sakin... I am in a confused heart right now...uu sobrang confused na ako...

Hindi ko kayang maging masaya ng my nasasaktan na iba, at hindi ko kayang saktan ang iba para lang sa sarili kong  kaligayahan...

Please help me to control everything... To stay away from andi, kahit na gustong gusto ko syang kasama at kausap...Sana makaya ko na iwasan sya na hindi sya nasasaktan...Na kapag nagtanong sya kung bakit may valid reason ako...na wag syang masaktan....I just cant be too selfish....Di bale na akong masaktan....Its my fault naman eh... Tama na, hindi talaga pwedeng ipilit ang hindi dapat....Im letting you go....Maybe in the right time will be together....Love will find a way.....


Tuesday 6 July 2010

Im Back!!!

Its been long time since my last post and my last visit. I went vacation for 31 days. As promised will be posting some pictures tomorrow. I missed this. And later will post some updates about andi.

Wednesday 2 June 2010

Tuesday 1 June 2010

Tama nah!

Tigilan mo na ako...Tama na.... Yaw ko na....Bakit ka ba ganyan? Bakit mo ba ako sinasaktan... Ayos na ako bakit kelangan balikan mo pa..

Bakit mo ako kelangan nalikan kung alam ko at alam mong hindi dapat. Kuntento na akong wala ka. Oo sobra akong nasasaktan ngaun. Bakit? Kasi si him nagpaparamdam na naman, wala naman dapat kami diba? kasi nga sa knya naman nagmula na wala syang nararamdaman sakin na ayaw nyang magustuhan ko sya. kaya ako mas pinili kong lumagay sa dapat kong paglagyan, uu hindi na ako nag memessage sa kanya, ni tawagan sya wala na, as in wala na, ayaw ko na, tama na, this past days parang di ko sya nakilala, ngaun early morning nag message sya sa pop up ko sabi nya why my line is so busy till morning. UU sobrang busy ko, napikon ako, its 9am in the morning ha, sabi ko casual why lang, sabi nya continue your PHONE chatting, haist pinatayan ko nga ng msg.pop up. Letche, wag kang magpaparamdam kung hindi mo kayang panindigan ang actions mo.Ngaung hapon na naman nag send sya ng wrong send sakin, alam ko sinadya nya, so sabi ko who is this? kasi mobile number ang sinend nya, sabi nya it was not for u....sorry...so sabi ko NC, sabi nya watever... ano bang gusto mo sakin?bakit parang ang hirap mo spellingin? ok lang sakin na sabihin mong bale na yung deal natin kasi ako gusto namna kita eh, ok lang sakin kahit hindi mo ako pakasalan,ok lang sakin na for the meantime lang, ok lang sakin lahat, basta alam ko lang kung ano ako at san ako lulugar sau...

Kung wala talaga hayaan mo na ako, wag kang nagigialam ng mga ginagawa ko at wala kang pakiaalam kung busy ang phone at kung sino ang kausap ko. Hayaan mo akong hanapin ko ang taong makakapagpasaya sakin at mahalin ako kung di mo kaya, as in hayaan mo na ako.

Monday 31 May 2010

2nd year anniversary

HAPPY 2nd YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

Oo dalawang taon na ako ngaung araw na to dito sa kumpanya ko.

Sunday 30 May 2010

MY TIME LOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last Night went to Marina Mall to shop and eat dinner with BFF. Its a nice feling when you are with your real friends. Friends that are not shy of telling how Fat, You look nice and your dress is seducing. In my BFF, ako ung taong hlaging napapagalitan kasi naman kahit hind mo sadyain malaswa daw at nagbibigay malisya sa ibang tao, i was wearing a fashion clothes, they called it butterfly cut. I am fshionista but not exaggerated. Yung tipong sakto lang. My other BFF - Parrot she is wearing somethjing so cool, ang laging problema sa kanya ay ang pagsasalita nya, she is bisaya so my accent sya. So the other BFF yung kanyang facial expressions, so was telling thruths and yung mga bagay samin, like masama kang tao kasi your telling your friends those things na hindi maganda about her, pero sa grupo namin usual na yun, dun namin pinapakita na nag cacare kami sa isat isa.We ate dinner, as all of us in on diet, cge pili ng kanya kanyang pagkain, i choosed 1 sliced of Pizza and mashed potato, parrot chooses salad from BK while my other BFF chooses Carbonara. so went to Plug Ins as i wanted to buy netbook for someone, after i  bought it  Parrot decided to buy hairband, went to claires, then i was facinating with the new trends bracelet so i was choosing 3 pcs. for the three of us. Then gave to them, they get jealous, parrot bought necklace for three of us and my other BFF bought Rings for each of us.After we decided to went home as it is already past 10 pm. We line up to wait for taxi.

First Dropped Parrot, then dropped my other BFF unfortunately here goes the accident, OO ACCIDENTE. Si gha hindi nya alam na meron sya, so pagbaba nya napansin nitong taxi driver na my tagos ung taxi nya, try to imagine konti lang, as konti lang. Alam nyo ba si mamang driver hinihingan nya agad kami ng 500 dirhams. ang lupit, heto na yung katarayan ko, 
AKO: What? 500 dirhams?
DRIVER: Yeah, how can i work, this is time loss. Give me 500 dirhams and go
AKO: NO. If you want will go to ADNOC will clean your car and put your meter on, i will pay the cleaning and your meter!
DRIVER:  NO time loss how can i work. Tell Me? Tell me? nan inigaw na sya nyan ha...


Pikon na ako kasi mukhang pera sya, Tahimik yung kaibigan ko kasi di sanay.


AKO: No i will not pay you. What you want?  pay you? If you dont want what i said then go. Will not give you anything.
DRIVER: I will not leave.

Cyempre ako pikon na ako, hindi ako sanay makipag usap sa ganito katigas na tao at bwisit. Tawag ako ngaun, tawag ako kay X sabi ko "please come" tapos sabay kwento, Buti nalang mabait sya, tawag sya agad sa kaibigan nya tapos bihis agad bago pa man sya nakarating natawag narin ni gha aunti nya, naunang dumating aunti nya. Kung ano conversation ko sataxi ganun din sa aunti nya mapilit na magbayad  talaga kami ng 500. Kapal talaga ng mukha nito, pati yung natoor ng autie ni Gha nakialam na, wala talagang magawa, tawag ako ulit kay X, where are you? please faster.
Heto na X Hinarap nya agad tong taxi, palibhasa Indiano takot sa arabic, Sabi ni X.

X: Come where is the damage?
DRIVER: dahil indiano hindi mo na gaano marinig ang boses " here"
X: Just little, ok. No Problem I know your Manager and  the owner of this company, Give me your manager will talk to him.
Kausap na ni  X yung manager, kesyo arabic di ko naintindihan, bahala na sila.
X: OK lets go to ADNOC. I will pay the cleaning then its OK. No need to pay you
DRIVER: My time loss you have to pay
X: No need pay you.Sabay sigaw na arabic na arabic tapos nanlaki ang mata.
DRIVER: OK
Dahil walang magawa ang driver pumayag na sya, si X na ang sumama sa driver.


Umuwi na ako, nakausap ko na si X nagbayad lang sya ng cleaning. Hay itong mga tao na to talaga. Minsan nakakabwisit...Kung wala si X nagbayad sana yung BFF ko ng 500 buti nalang.


Asa gate na ako ng villa namin, shocks ang susi ko, ayaw ba naman pumasok sa susihan, haist..minamalas ka nga naman, tawag ako sa ate ko, lahat na ng tao ng try ng susi nila, wala talaga. 45 mins akong naghintay sa labas ng gate. Imagine, Sobrang badtrip ko. 01: 25 am na ako nakapasok, pagakatpos nila sirain ang gate namin.Hay Buhay.. 


Buti nalang lahat ng naging problema nasolusyonan.  :P

Saturday 29 May 2010

Bakasyong Engrande

Dahil sa Civil War na yan hindi na ako tuloy sa Thailand, sa Hongkong na ako..Change lahat. Hotel Bookings and everything. Naku lalo tuloy akong gagastos nito. Nag check na rin ako ng pwedeng ganwin sa HK, mapapalaban ako kasi ang dami ng nagbilin ng kanilang mga pasalubong, haist.. 

Last Thursday 27.05.10 - Nagmidnight beach kami with friends, and i enjoyed alot, nung una disasater kasi alang place buti nlng todo effort ang mga friendship ko.I am terribly tired sa kakalangoy, we started the party ng 8 pm till 01:30 am. Grabe as in sobrang masaya. And probably will miss them. Kasi sil ung tipo ng kaibigan na hindi mo na nanaisin pang mawala, they cared alot. 

28.05.10 - Stayed at home.

29.05.10 - Mylene's Bday celeb. umaga palang busy na ako kasi taga luto, as in lahat ng handa niluto ko at ng sister ko, after cooking at 05:00 pm naku susundo pa pala ako sa airport, hayun bihis punta airport kasi susunduin ko ung pinsan kong nagbakasyon, pagdating sa bahay grabe pagod na ako, nahiga ako, tapos kain na kami as in ang dami nung handa, kumain lang ako ng balot na galing sa pinas, kasi kapag ako ang nagluto wala na akong ganang kumain, after ko kumain ng balot hayun umakyat na ako sa room at nahiga, as in pagod ako. 

I just realized that no matter how you planned things they are some circumstances na pwede syang mabago. 

PS: Expect the unexpected... Trulala ito kasi di ko expect na my makukuha akong extra na pera or let say bonus galing sa amo ko. Hindi kasi ako nag eexpect na bibigyan nya ako. So aga aga kong masaya. 

Wednesday 26 May 2010

Quotes Daw -Send by Parrrot

Bakit masakit yung katotohanan na minsan kahit gaano kasweet, kalambing, kaclose, kabait sayo ang isang tao hindi ka pa din niya kayang mahalin? Simple lang. Dahil hindi mo tanggap na kahit gaano ka man kahalaga sa kanya, bumabalik pa rin sa katotohanan na iba parin talaga ang MAHAL sa MAHALaga.

Tuesday 25 May 2010

Nine Days and Eight Nights to go...

EXCITED na ako... Obvious ba?..Nine days to go and Eight Nights, makaaalis na ako ng trabaho ko, makakapag pahinga ako ng 31 days. Bakasyong Galore..Excited na ako kaya lang wala pa akong ticket at hotel bookings ano ba yan, ang tagal naman ng sahuran, kelangan ko na i arrange lahat. Baka maudlot pa. Magiging malungkot lang ako.

UU magbabakasyon ako.San? Jan lang sa tabi tabi..Ay malau pala, kasi magbabaksyon ako sa Thailand, uu sa Thailand, first ever bakasyon ko for 2 years, sana nga matuloy ako.

Dito sa opisina madaming nagsasabi ng panu na daw sila kapag wala ako, san ka ba naman nakakita ng katulad ko,  kahit hindi ko amo nasta ung pangalan nya nakalagay sa meeting schedule ng amo ko i reremind ko sa meeting todo early in the morning ko i reremind, lalo na ang Civil Manager namin na ulyanin at walang secretary naku todo todo syang nag paparinig sa HR na panu na daw sya kapag wala ako, wala na daw mag reremind sa kanya lalo na ulyanin sya, Ganun din sa HSE Manager, naku buti pa sila panu naman kaya ang amo kong GM? mamiss nya rin kaya ako? ay malamang kasi wala na syang masisita at kukuha ng mga gamit nya sa kotse nyang maganda, wala ng gagawa ng Meeting Schedules nya, ng MOM nya na di naman nya binabasa basta sign nalang ng sign pag my mali kaw my kaslanan, dapat perfect. Kawawa naman ang rerelyebo sakin, lalo na hindi sila sanay sa kasungitan at pagiging spolied brat ng amo ko. Lalo na sa pag sasalita nya kasi mag uutos sya habang naglalakad.Sa wakas matatakasan ko na ang Recruitment Dept. na ubod ng tamad. hahaha asa nila lahat sakin...San ka pa.Sana lang walang mang iistorbo sakin na tatawag tawagan ako.

Well pag ako naman magbakasyon mamiss ko rin sila at cyempre mamimiss ko rin ang bagong bukas kong blog, ang bago kong Kua Donald, at ang mga kaibigan ko. Sana naman mamiss din nila ako.

Im sure mangingitim ako, kakswimming. Sana maenjoy ko.

Pagdating ko after thailand mag popost na ako ng bongang bongang pictures ko dito

Pasensya na kung walang kwenta tong post ko na to, excited lang kasi ako.

Sunday 23 May 2010

Im I Lucky?..('o')

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

Yan ang madalas kong sabihin kapag my pumupuri sakin. Madalas maswerte daw ako kasi lahat ng gustuhin ko o kaya ay mahalin ay mahal ako, madalas tama, pero hindi rin  nila alam na minsan kala nila masaya na ako pero di pa, my kulang. Kala ng mga hindi nakakakilala sakin, kapag nakikita nilang nakangiti ako, masaya na ako at ok, hidni nila alam kelangan kong ngumiti at maging ok kapag kaharap sila,kelangan eh..

My mga kaibigan akong naiingit sakin, perfect daw ang buhay ko, madalas kong sabihin sa knila, walang taong perfet ang buhay, my mga bagay din akong pinagdaan, my mga problma din ako. My mga kulang din sa buhay ko. My mga bagay akong gusto na hindi ko rin naman nakukuha.

Maraming naiingit kasi nasa akin na daw lahat, sabi ni HSE Manager, Beauty and Brains. 

Masuwerte daw ako, oo totoong masuwerte ako kasi my isang taong sobrang mahal ako, my isang taong nag sasakripisyo para sakin.My taong laging nanjan. 

Hindi ba nila alam na yung taong mahal ko, wala ako kahit katiting na pag asa, oo na lahat na ng bagay ginagawa  nya anjan sya lagi pero hindi nyo alam na un eh wala lang...Na hindi pwedeng maging kami.. Na kapag maramdaman nya na mahal na nya ako iiwan nya ako kasi  hindi pwede maging kami..

Bakit kasi hindi nalang pwede na ibigay ang lahat ng gusto mo sa iisang tao, Na kapag mahal ka ng isang tao eh dapat ganun rin sya, hindi yung nagmamahal sau eh wala ka ng nararamdaman, hindi ung mahal mo ay hindi ka naman mahal.

Ano ba ang dapat piliin ang taong mahal mo,ang taong nanjan para sau o ang taong nagmamahal para sau?.


Saturday 22 May 2010

From Parrot

Weekends Get Away

May 20,2010

Natuloy nga kami s apag cra crabbing, grabe napakalayo pala, we meet alot of people lalo na ung mga kababayan natin na OFW rin na nakatira sa mga camp. Mga company accomodation.Ang hirap din pala ng mga buhay nila, para silang mga iskwaters, nung nasa tabi na kami ng dagat, its a pleasure as 4 lang kaming mga babae out of 10 na kalalakihan, Filipino guys are still gentleman pala, so they cooked and trear us like a  quenns.  Grabe ngaun lang ako ulit nakaranas ng parang totoong camping na  parang nasa pilipinas ka lang, First time ever to eat oyster, oysters are sold here like 800 dirhams so it is like bihira alng kami makakain or more theless hindi nakakakain...Meet new friends and was reaaly happy.

May 21, 2010

Same companies ulit, went to our kaopisina's house or sya ung tinatawag kong uncle as he has despidida party, uuwi kasi ng pinas for 1 month. so came there late na kasi i went first to his house, spent some time with him. Kahit na hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga kami nag eeforrt parin ako just to be with him, watch movie, masaya na ako ng nakakasama ko sya, at iba yung feeling, at 05:00 nag punta na ako sa mga kaibigan ko, pagdating ko we ate sisig na baboy, grabe ang sarap so, ako kasi hindi ako nahihiya kumain ako ng rice, then drink...I was checking to rubierubs our photo during the carbbing kaya lang she deleted it. so i was sad kasi balak ko pa naman i post dito yun.They are planning to go to Bar kaya lang humindi ako, nakapang bahay lang kaya ako, so parrot told them kung hindi daw ako pupunta hindi din daw sya sasama, so the planned is cancellled. I went home and was callling him kaya lang di sya sumasagot, well its always like this. So when i reached home, kunyari wala muna akong sad feeli ngs towads him, decided to take shower, after shower dialled again his number, wala pa rin, so nanonood ako ng TFC then texted him,
ME:  Where are you?
Hindi sya nagreply, so okei 1 misscall kapag hindi nya pa sagutin leave him, wag na maging makulit so i was calling him, salamat naman at sinagot nya, kasama nya yung kaibigan nya so told him im at home now, i will sleep, so he told me OK goodnight. so went to bed and sleep.

May 22,2010

I woke up at 9 am, imagine wala akong work but i woke up early, si ate kasi eh, dahil lalabas sila with my cousins, so ate breakfast then sa wala akong magawa sige hanap ng pwedeng pag ka abalahan, pinuntahan ko si sam sam ung bata samin, nakipaglaro ako, hangang sa tumawag sya sakin
HIM: Napospone ung lakad natin kahapon gusto mo manood mamaya?
ME: Cge anong oras?
HIM: mga ala una ng hapon
ME: Cge anong oras mo ako susunduin?
HIM: mga 12:15 nanjan na ako sa harap ng bahay nyo, misscall kita
ME: Cge
so cge parin ako sa pakikipaglaro kay sam sam, hangang sa antukin nya sya 11:40, so ako naman naligo na, nag aayos palang ako, ayan na panay na ang kanyang misscalls.Sa pag mamadali ko hindi na ako nakapag ayos, so sakay na ako sa kotse nya,  so ako panay ang kwento ko, tapos nakarating na kami sa marina mall, bumili sya ng ticket at ako naman bumili ng cola at popcorn, nanood na kami, sya maingay kasi ikinukuwento nya sakin ung movie, kasi base daw yun sa games, King of Persia ung movie, dahil 2 oras at 30 mins un, nabobore ako, so na feel nya. After ng movie kumain kami ng pizza, sa foodcourt kasi concern daw sya sa mga gusto kong kainin, so kwento parin ako ng kwento sa knya about thursday night at yung pagdalaw namin sa uncle ko, si parrot tawag ng tawag sakin, so parang nairita sya, so sabi nya san na? kako mamyang 5 pm matatapos ung pasok ni parrot, sabi nya i can stay and drop u, so sabi ko wag nlng since u have to go to ur uncles house right? so sabi nya skin ayaw kong nag tatxi ka, haler concern sya?. sabi ko ok lang ayaw kong maabala ka, gusto mo umuwi ka na muna magpahinga  tapos punta ka sa uncle mo, ako ok lang pwede mo muna ako ihatid sa pinsan ko then wait ko na si parrot dun. So un, ako parin ang nasunod. Kaya lang di parin kami nagkita ni parrot decided to go home. Wala akong nareceived na text o kahit na ano galing sa knya.

Mahirap pala ang ganitong sitwasyon, kasi hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ako sa knya, Takot lang ba sya talgang aminin na my gusto rin sya sakin kasi sa unang deal namin na wag nya akong mahalin?.

Wednesday 19 May 2010

How could you?

Last night was girls out...with my friends....its big a long time since hindi kami nagkita kitang magkakaibigan.... its like reunion....where all happy, we ate in Burger King.... We planned to go to Bar but unfortunately walang sponsor..hahaha... As all of us doesnt have money....so one of my friend called someone, but that someone i just feel not comfortable, so decided not to come nlang... We all seperate ways na, i called him and telling na uuwi na ako, hay buhay, sya naman pala ay nagsasaya... At sabi nya sakin kakausapin nalang kita bukas okei... tapos patay na CP... After i reached home i do recall what he told me that matagal na daw syang di nakakain ng spaghetti, so ako naman si tanga ipinagluto ko sya and i  texted him, pwede mo ba akong sunduin bukas? so he texted back cge susunduin kita, matutulog na ako at antok na ako, so i texted again cge goodnight, nagluluto pa kasi ako...So i was trying to cook the dish...Morning...
ME: magandang umaga...susunduin mo ba ako o hindi?
Frustrated kasi wala syang reply, so i called him he didnt pick it up..Then i changed. I called him again, he then picked up and was telling me he is changing amd would probably come..So i was happy. At last... Then he came, he gave me something to eat then i gave him tghe spaghetti, and then instead of sabihin na salamat ang kupal ang sabi nya sakin bakit daw nagluto pa ako... Alam mo ung sakit na instead sana magpasalamat nlang sya parang utang na loob ko pang ipinagluto ko sya. So he told me sana hindi ka nagluto para sakin? tama ba? ang aking sagot naman hindi actually para sau kung bakit ako nagluto...Hay buhay nga naman sya na nga yung binibigyan di pa rin nya maappreciate...Then i changed topic, I asked him kung pwede syang sumama mamayang gabi where are going for Crabbing ito yung conversation:
HIM: kau nalang tutal naman my mga kasama kaung lalake o kaya isama mo si ray
ME: wala kaming kasama  puro babae lang kami
HIM: Un naman pala eh bakit isasama mo pa ako
ME: tinanong ko lang if gusto mo
HIM: hindi kau nalang, nakakahiya puro babae kau
ME: so what naman kilala ka naman nila, actually gusto ka nga rin nilang makasama eh
HIM: next time nlang
ME: Ok
Puro ok lang naman sakin, mahirap ipilit ang ayaw. Then he katahimikan, ayaw ko ng magsalita kasi ayaw nya naman ng lahat ng sinasabi ko hangang makarating ako sa aking opisina, ulit nangulit ako
ME: ayaw mo ba talgang sumama o my lakad ka
HIM: uu meron eh, pupunta ako ng Dubai, pero hindi pa un confirmed.
ME: ah okei then...enjoy..
HIM: kelangan ba talgang i ref ung spaghetti
ME: uu kelangan kundi mapapnis un
HIM: OK
HIM: gsuto mo ba manood ng King of Persia sa Friday o Sabado?
ME: Cge sa friday nalang.
Pambawi siguro nya kasi  pupunta sya sa dubai mamyang gabi, well ok lang naman tangap ko naman na my iba sya dun eh...
Inform ko na lahat ng friends ko na hindi sya kasama, so sila naman abala sila sa kakhanap ng makaksama na my sasakyan....
Atlast my nahanap sila... so tuloy parin kami mamayang gabi.sana mag enjoy kami...

Your so Rude!!!

How can u just hurt me like this...
How can u so foolish.....

I thought after you let me feel that u cared for me, now ur hhurting me too much... What do u want from me?.. Stop be so caring as if u have feelings with me, but the thruths is u dont want to have feelings with me and u dont even want me to feel that i cared also for you..
You are using me....If only i can say to you that if only we dont have rules in this relationship i will honestly tell you that i am falling....That i cared alot that i want you to feel that someon is here for you...but how can i do that, when i am just telling you something, ur there to hurt me, is that your way so that i would not fall for u?.. That u keep on telling me that what we have is just a game, that soon will end... That u dont want to hurt my feeling or its just that u just dont want to hurt YOUR feelings. You are selfish... Sometimes you let me feel that you are jealous, that now that we are together nobody will hurt me, what do you really want from me?... I think i hurt you in what i replied... Im just human.....and if u will hurt me in your way i know also how to hurt you.... Right now i dont know what is in your mind and heart...I guess i will just dance in the song that you want to play... But please dont say words that it tears me into pieces...I know whatever i have for you i can hold it carefully...i guess i have to cut this whatever it is...as i cannot have anything from you....even a BF/GF relationship i know you cannot give....

Give me more time to think and maybe this time i will definitely leaves u...

Reminiscing the Past : )

During lunch break me and my office mates are talking all about our past relationships, nakakatuwa kasi sa mga naging karanasan ng mga office mates ko nakakapulot ako ng mga leksyon. Naalala ko tuloy ung mga past relationships ko...Ung mga relationships na ayaw mo n balikan o yung mga relasyon na gusto mo na ibaon sa limot...
alin nga ba nag mas mahirap ang iwan ka ng dahil sa iba o sya ang iiwanan mo?... 
Alin nga ba ang masakit ang lokohin ka o nasaktan ka dahil sa mga bagay na nagawa mo na para sa knya at sa panahon na nasayang?. 

Hindi ba nakakamiss ung ganito moments?.. 

Well di naman ako bitter kasi as of now my BF ako.. 

Minsan lang naiisip ko siguro nga ang tao hindi nakukuntento sa kung anong meron sila, kasi my mga GF and Bf's parin na nag two two timer...

Hanggang san mo ba pwedeng sabihin na  kau na nga, un ba ay pag nakasal na kau? diba sa panahon ngaun marami rin yung mga nag hihiwalay o ung mga my asawang nangangaliwa... 

 Mahirap masaktan kaya lang heto parin tau paulit ulit taung nagmamahal at hindi natin kung hanggang kelan tau patuloy na masasaktan...

Broken Heart

How can u say that u dont Love someone but you still Care alot for Her?

How can u say that u dont Love someone but you still Care a lot for Her?

This is my question last night...Here goes the story":

Before going home i asked my friend if one day he will feel that he loves me, what will he do ( as i am chatting every single minute at him. He pop me up like this "Well....before it cultivates into love...i would move away from u....as i know...it wont be allowed by my family :P
never :P"
as he is indian... So sent msg. again with him telling im not feeling well and probably i will sleep as soon as i reached home. So he told me same as him.
But didn't went home. I had Dinner with my hubby @ Fridays. When reached home checked my mobile he has 2 miss calls.So i texted him asking why? he texted me back that he is just checking how i am and gudnights...

Just wandering if he doesn't have any feelings at me why is it that he cares a lot....

Blogging while working

While doing my blog...My office mate came and telling me that i am not working that i am doing something, sometimes being interrupt which i hate the most i told him to go away...I know im rude in that way but i am concentrating in doing this blog page, as if i don't want anyone to talked to me while doing this...

Im enjoying this new habit...hahaha

First Time :)

Before i just wished to have a blog site to share my feelings and everything about me...

This is it...